Monday, August 25, 2008


i hate packing!!!

Sunday, August 24, 2008

feeling like...

Friday, August 22, 2008

Eternal Optimist

And I have decided that in order to live, I must release all negativities from my life. My survival depends on my eternal optimism. I am now making promises to myself, knowing that certain prophecies shall be fulfilled, and claiming all that I want and need. Without a doubt, hard work must back up this renewed optimism. i am learning to be who I was once

Friday, August 8, 2008

hometown identity crisis

i'm headed back to my homtown today, and i always have mixed feelings about going back...i love my family, but i don't really like it there...all the thoughts that popped up in my head about going back, made me think about how i really have a sort of identity crisis about my hometown...what do i mean? well, here's a typical conversation about where i'm from:
Person: Where are you from?
Me: Southern Illinois.
Person: Oh, like Urbana? or like Carbondale?
Me: Neither...well, I'm from Belleville, which is like a suburb of STL

Person: But it's in Illinois?
Me: Yeah
Person: Oh, so like E St. Louis?
Me: Well, kinda...i guess. That's where my family is from
Person: Oh, yeah, I know some people from there too. They went to East Side
Me: Well, I'm really not from there...I lived in Belleville

Then, I spend the rest of the conversation trying to explain my hometown, and why it's not completely lame...frustration

Thursday, August 7, 2008


people always ask if I could go anywhere in the world, where would i 3: Greece, London, and Southern Egypt/Sudan...reasoning...Greece is beautiful...London seems exciting and would keep up with the way I like to live...Southern Egypt/Sudan holds so much history for anyone with African ancestry...imagine being in the same place as the ancient nubian and kush empires. Strong blacks, before they had the misfortune of being overcome by outsiders. I think it would be a matter of fact, i think i'm going to plan a trip to the museum very soon to pretend like im there